addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
13 days on...
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
tagboard ;
guestbook
the sounds, the memories, the company...
some days i just feel like i'm not me anymore. living in denial, refusing to remember who i really am, what i really feel. other days my head just feels so heavy and full of questions nobody will ever be able to answer.
i think to myself, maybe if i just forgot everything it would all be alright again. but the truth is you can never forget.. never. maybe for a day or two, or three? just blocking everything out. but really, how long can anyone pretend for?
please don't object to my pessimism. a full week of supposed optimism has left me feeling drained. my blotchy face feels plastic- stretched into a smile to keep tear ducts from being active.
when i wake up tomorrow i'll have to have forgotten all this and just go about doing all the much needed work.
i'm sleepy. physics is fun..physics is fun..physics is fun..physics is fun...
ok. guess i'm all "psyched" up for tmr -.-"